Remember that rockin' song? Well I certainly do...and it SO holds true for me. I AM my own worst enemy. I allow for anger and resentment to creep in...for callousness and bitterness to mount up. And I realize that by allowing that power over my life, I'll never get to where I need to be in my quest of faith.
The hardest thing...is that it is SO easy to allow it to happen.
Why? Because anger is a fundamental emotion, and it is so much easier to place blame elsewhere, feel vindicated, become entrenched in an eye for an eye type of mentality. We are ALL so encompassed by a "What's in it for me?" mentality that anger then is traveling right behind that thought process when in fact, things don't go the way we intend or want.
I have to work through this. I have to think. I have to be able to look at things from another perspective. I have worked ON this for a while now, and while I feel that it is better than it used to be, I still have the knee-jerk reaction of flying off the handle at many times, and for the most part--it's silly pride. It's not thinking about anything other than myself.
And just like the opening line to "A Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren, I must realize....It's not about me. It's about Church..it's about God...It's about Jesus..it's about serving the Lord.
Please Lord...help me to see things for what they should be and to not let anger rule my life. I need to be able to forgive and move on, to be giving, and to not let this dictate who I am or how I feel.
How do you deal with anger? How do you do it in the sense of thinking like a Christian? Is it something that you struggle with?
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